Today, I don't feel so well and I am a wee bit on edge. I had to take a muscle relaxer for a bit of shoulder pain last night and the whole day has been behind and it's taken great effort to make it to that moment of climbing in my comfy bed with that precious sigh of relief. So with my gratitude effort being a bit challenged, I've needed to see the many tiny acts of kindness the Lord sends me daily. You know those days when the frustrations make themselves abundantly clear but the beautiful graces can only be seen with a spiritual vision adjustment?
Jay sets the pot of coffee to "auto on" if I am still groggy when he leaves in the morning and made a special trip to bring breakfast home for us all.
A friend sent an affirming, "spur one another on" text: "Hey friend... just thinking about our gift...joy...in this meaningless repetition lets open it for today."
Annabeth had a fun lunch out with a sweet family.
Jack said, "You know what? I love you Mommy."
A new friend complimented the beauty of my children.
Emma folded a pile of laundry with a sweet spirit.
A couple of women set up the chairs for Bible study before anyone arrived.
Another friend gave a simple but meaningful "thank-you" after Bible study was over.
My parents generously give to our family so the kids can learn to play the piano.
A friend mistakenly threw a pair of Jack's shoes away when cleaning the church, but she dug through the trash in the pitch black night to retrieve them.
Annabeth tagged along to the grocery store with me and helped with that monotonous task.
My husband took care of all the bedtime needs of the children without complaint so I could rest.
Lord, correct my spirit when the focus becomes all about my comfort and ease. Show me how your tender loving kindness surrounds me every moment and bring my mouth to confess Your greatness in all things.
I will be praying for your recovery! It's so easy to focus on the negatives and forget the positives that are braided throughout our daily lives. I should probably text you about this but it feels too personal - my Grandmom, who is trying to beat her sixth cancer, failing kidneys, and persistent bowel blockages, who hasn't been able to keep food down for the majority of the past two months, is not doing well at all right now. While I pray for her healing and comfort, I am also a bit bitter at the thought of losing a grandparent for the first time. I am uncomfortable with how selfish this makes me, and I feel every bit as selfish as I ought not to be. Thank you for these words. As I deal with grieving family and my own inner demons, your posts help remind me in a very real way of the small things that I am constantly taking for granted. Love you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about your grandmother. It is so difficult to lose a loved one. I know the Lord showed me a new meaning for Psalm 23 when I've faced the death of family members. The promise is to not just meet you in death but to walk with your through the valley of the shadow of death. There truly is an amazing peace and comfort that only He provides as He walks His children from this home to their eternal one. I will pray that you may feel His peace that surpasses your understanding and that you rest in His joy even on your most difficult days. You are so precious; I love watching Christ work in your life!
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