January 9, 2012 Trust and Obey

January 9, 2012

Remember that post from five whole days ago?  That one about my cynicism and jaded dreading of the "big bad" to drop because I've committed a year of thankfulness?  Yeah, well here's where the rubber meets the road so to speak, or rather the metal meets the air???  Not sure how that saying works out in the world of flying, but my dear husband will board one of those machines that I so dread and fly an ocean away to Africa on Wednesday.  He has been given an amazing blessing of touring parts of Kenya with Compassion International.  I'm pretending Wednesday is still far away but when I walked through our room and saw his meager packing supplies (which would translate to two days for me but eight days for him)  my heart felt a bit of anxiety.  He is truly an amazing husband, and I know there will be many days during this year that I will be able to write about what a gift he is to me.  (I'm sure he would vote for perhaps a month of Jay-only thankfulness?)  But truly he is one of the few people I've encountered that knows the depth of "trust and obey."  Last night when I expressed some mild concern that perhaps he might never return from the depths of Africa, he calmly stated "When the Lord is ready, He will call me home and nothing is going to change that."  My first thought was, "Pooey on you," but my second (or perhaps even third) thought was "Thank you Lord for a husband who models Biblical peace."  Who indeed holds every minute of our tiny lives in the depths of His loving hands?  Who cares about His children far beyond the lilies of the field or the birds of the air? And more importantly, who is going to touch my husband's heart and open his eyes to the needs of His precious children living half a world away?  I know that this trip will only reveal even more of our Savior to my husband, my children and myself so I will take a few deep breaths and pray for His peace that surpasses my understanding and trust and obey.....